a big waste of money?

almond trees in flower: all that we can achieve is, with
nothing remaining, to recognize ourselves in earthly appearance. rainer maria rilke

bringing the holding back into being a productive space is a costly business….fencing, stock, ditching and the prospect of a storage building….to say nothing of all the time commitments needed….in our last, much smaller holding, we were too cautious, too reserved when swallowing a few sizeable bills is all part of breathing life into somewhere…sometimes you have to push it, commit more than might be comfortable to reach the critical threshold, tighten the string a little to get the right note

having ummed and aahed about what to do this year and what to leave til next, I leapt at almost everything I could think off that I wanted to do…..the last decision was whether to plump for almonds now, or at all….a gamble, newer french varieties whose flowering may dodge the frosts that tend to do for most almonds in england

one hundred, from a french supplier, the combination of two complimentary cultivars I wanted… disaster….they arrived late, bone dry, broken wrapping, and as a work colleague arrived for a meeting…..once stood, their feet covered in compost, i soaked them and we ran for cover and coffee…yet again, ‘work’ and ‘here’ collides

maybe its too late for them, will they fail to take when planted?….itll take a few months to tell, theres no option but to commit days of time to dig holes, clear turf, soak roots, plant, stake and plastic sleeve from the rabbits….and perhaps all for nothing